The Fear of Fear

by Kerstin Halt

The fear of fear

infinitely embrace.

Sink.

Immersion.

This storm of numbness

held in the waves

of my breath.

Trembling in the powerlessness

of not being heard.

Vulnerability is the

sinking into dying.

What is dying?

To surrender

into the primal longing

for being held

and not being held.

For a moment

saying yes

to dying.

To selvation.

Infinite peace

at the end.

Surrender to your powerlessness

is the loss,

the abandonment

of all attachments.

Am I still human then?

Beloved being,

when you plunge into powerlessness 

and surrender to dying,

you have given up

what weakens you.

Then the sea of peace emerges.

There you sink in.

Look at life

from this perspective

and feel

as if you were born again.

As if you were

loving for the first time,

laughing for the first time,

crying for the first time.

The ocean opens up to you.

It invites you

to die

and

to awaken.

To see with the eyes

of the unknown.

Dear being,

you are here.

Arrived.

And infinitely loved.

Thank you!